The Short Day Dying is a strange book. It presents itself as a first person memoir from a year in the life of Charles Wenmoth, a young Methodist lay preacher and apprentice blacksmith, in the farthest reaches of Cornwall. The year in question is 1870.
Nothing happens. And therein lies its beauty. This is a stark, melancholic and ultimately redemptive story (perhaps!) painted in sombre hues that reflect the harshness of his life. If this story did not present a faith journey along some roads that I found profoundly familiar, I’m not sure it could have sustained my interest. As it was, I finished it in the wee hours of the morning, unable to put it down as I ached for this sad and lonely man, utterly bewildered by faith as he struggled with doubt, disappointment and the disinterest and apathy of ordinary people to the things of faith.
At it’s centre is a love story that occupies the middle section of the book, only Charles lacks the sensibility to understand that what was going on in him was a process of falling in love. His head is so full of the rational arguments for faith and the mechanical accounting of good works against bad that he has no place for his emotional life, except in so far as the effects of the changing seasons on the countryside can stir him.
I found myself wondering whether this is a blind spot of fundamentalist religion. When life is lived with reference to certainties; black/white, in/out, right/wrong, the true complexities of living, like love and loss are uncharted territory. Wenmouth was skilled at assessing what, for him, were certain and sure, but the true inner life where love dwells was closed. So, though he pastored people, he never really understood them. Or himself. The awareness of love came late to him, and only after his crisis.
Harriet French is the young woman dying of TB who manages, despite the evidence, to retain a vital faith in the face of terrible suffering. Wenmouth struggles with her strength in trial and when he eventually comes down with illness himself it marks the beginning of his struggles with doubt. He questions his desire for heaven by looking back to his chaste relationship with Harriet saying, after her death, ‘There has been a Heaven here and it has been lost why should I long for a new one.’ (p169) (note the sentence structure takes a while to read into, there is little by way of punctuation and it’s very direct and spare.
Thereafter the story shifts from the church to the forge as he undergoes a white hot testing.
Above all this is a story of faith, from the simple certainties of his conversion, the embrace of service to the church, through the dark crisis brought on by loneliness, illness and anger, to a new place where the faith he embraces, if indeed he does, is mixed with doubt and questioning. He describes his faith thus,
“I knew my faith were still there a hard kernel inside of me but deep inside and diminishing. Faith is a stone I could forget were there and live with always and not know what the oppressive weight in me were….It appears that doubt and disbelief have visited me like a shuddering gale brought from far out to sea and I have been caught in open ground with no shelter to come into.” (p181).
As I got further into the book I wondered how it would end, and when I got there I was delighted. It was appropriate. The book which opens with a very direct statement about the old certainties of the days being short and the need to invest time wisely, and ends with the clarity of a simple question…’How else shall we be saved?’
Some may interpret the conclusion as a loss of faith. I disagree. For me, the story’s ending was a new found faith, one tested in and through fire, which leaves room for exploration. I was reminded of Brueggemann’s argument of the move from Psalm 1, and the simple well-ordered life, through the agony of Psalm 73 where the world of Psalm 1 collapses, to a new place in Psalm 150, from orientation to disorientation to reorientation. Or even Fowler’s stages of faith.
Here is a sample from towards the end of the book which moved me:
“The bells still sounded they came discordant across the distance hauling in the early hours of the new year. It were an alluring sound the only sign I had that human life continued tonight. But they called to no one the night were empty. And I saw that there will be no kingdom builded here none of Heaven’s glories to limn this earth. The light of Salvation came once like a beam through the night and shone among these hills but the clouds have thickened and I do not see it now. Feels I am much in need of some light.
The bells grew longer. Seemed for a brief moment that they had slowed and dragged time to slowing with them. That I might breathe of it and delay my breathing until I held time within my lungs that I could make it pause until I had found its measure and we breathed together. But the slowness of my breath were not enough and still the bells returned their toll strange and ghostly in the night the sound lingering like a wraith among the hills before fleeing. And then silence and the year were gone into eternity. It is a new one now.
The years will not be restored to me. They turn over and run in until all this is gone before they pull life from me I can feel the tugging at my chest and belly and the grievous aching pain. My arms and legs too heavy to draw against it. I know what this feeling is it is loss and it is harrowing and I am afraid. I do not know how I will live with it seems it will take everything from me. Strange how much of an animal I feel myself to be at this moment just flesh and bone encasing an empty core and an instinct to cry out for the loneliness of it. Where is the soul that binds this life together?” (p.195/6)
What is that grinding and harrowing loss that frightens him? Is it the loss of love? Or of faith? How would you know the difference?
This is not a book for light reading. If you have not had to walk down any of the roads that Wenmouth walked, it’s probably not for you. But for a challenging, beautifully observed, skeletal, dark but compelling book, this was terrific.
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